Thursday, October 29, 2009

The ends of Prayer...!

We turn to Acts 21:1-6,

["... 1And it came to pass, that after we were gotten from them, and had launched, we came with a straight course unto Coos, and the day following unto Rhodes, and from thence unto Patara:
2And finding a ship sailing over unto Phenicia, we went aboard, and set forth.
3Now when we had discovered Cyprus, we left it on the left hand, and sailed into Syria, and landed at Tyre: for there the ship was to unlade her burden.
4And finding disciples, we tarried there seven days: who said to Paul through the Spirit, that he should not go up to Jerusalem.
5And when we had accomplished those days, we departed and went our way; and they all brought us on our way, with wives and children, till we were out of the city: and we kneeled down on the shore, and prayed.
6And when we had taken our leave one of another, we took ship; and they returned home again..."]

I must amen to our sponsor, sponsor a new thing, prayer time. I'm not to good at praying, and I could use sometime to formally get close to God and outline my supplications. For those who know how to pray, please pray that our youngsters get more involved in the ministy here...

I feel those that are young here are not...Well I won't say it! Just pray that more youngsters get involved to prayer to God. Now those in Acts, the wives, men, and children, went out of the city, and they knelt to pray...

I feel that we are just praying for our little group or relative or favorite blogger. And its fine. It's free game. But Jesus said that if we only greet our bretheren and salute only those that love us, we are no different than any one coming off the street...

If we are praying for the protection of the social circle and those we steem very much, well it is just a prayer, and not a supplication of ferverent servant. And I haven't prayed much for those who hate me!...

And I wrote this blog, for those who quietly hate me in their heart with quiet disdain. I'm not offended, but I don't think it is beneficial to do that. And today I will pray for those who never greet me or I am not their cup of tea..

But enough of reviling for one day. I really hope God blesses all of you. And if I never got to catch you wavelegth, I am sorry I wasn't more clever in catching you. I really lament I did not earn your respect...

Perhaps I lost some of you in what at sometimes said. And it's no mystery sometime I lay away at night praying for God to give meaning to my messages. I thank all of you who have walked with me and you know who you are...

But what is the end of Prayer? And it is not to make those who are rich richer but to give those that are poor a chance, maybe the first one! And I pray for all of you and specially those who do not understand what I say...

This may be subjective but we'll let the Lord be judge of my words and to see if they are true. And it is a good thing for brothers and sister to gather to pray and do earnestly pray for each other and try to forbear each other...

We that is it please pray for me that God continue to open more road to my trek in this life! Thanks all of you my freinds here for you communion and support and all you kind amens and comments and gem of wisdom you share with me and others near and far off...

Blessings. Chow!

thbg

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

For this one I had to pray...!

After my daughter set off for her departure and the kids. I felt like an empty nester all over again. I thought I learned something. I wanted to continue divulging God truth according to my version. I was reading somebody else's blog and I marveled...

I asked God to forgive my and all our sins. I plain forgot that we all need Christ. My daughter needs Christ and so the kids and everyone. I beginning to expect something even from the ones I love or should love. I marveled at my mistake...

I began to make my mistake at measuring the effectiveness of God work on me. In my steem I divulged the most precious truth I have ever come across in my study and very few benefited from it...

But the truth is so wonderful that it does not need anyone to look at it to shine. Its glory and joy are self contained. If I miss out. I have only myself to blame myself for it. God will not make himself responsible for our blindness...

God will not have a guilt trip in eternity. God has determined if someone goes to hell its because they love darkness rather than light. God has never made any covenants or agreements to give man anything...

Man in his peculiar nature is always trying to hack the control God has over all things. God said to Moses, "I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy and compassion on whom I will have compassion..."

God has declared himself as a one show ring leader. God has created darkness but then the light and if you couldn't see, it is your or my problem. God has made his whole counsel availiable for $1.00 at a dollar store and if you did not care...?

I thought my life was down, then my 5 year nephew, was told to me, had a lots of questions for ME, and I said what is your question? He said, "I want to know when was God born...?" And what about Jesus God...?

I told this person whom God decided to reveal himself, and as the child fast forwarded his Superman 4 movie, I told him, God has always existed and has no beginning or end and if you put you trust in Jesus God, like you address him, you will see Superman 5, and 6 and 7, eat pizza for eternity, and you will live forever. You will never die...

He said "Whooola...!" "That is neat...!" "I want to do that...!"....

Jesus told some that "Many will come from the north, from the south, from east and from the west and take their seat at the table of the kingdom with Abraham, Isacc and Jacob, but the children of the kingdom will be cast out into outer darkness, where there will be wailing and knashing of teeth...

thbg

Friday, August 7, 2009

What's in a meaning...?!

Sometime when we write something, a skit, parable, story, anecdote, or vision in heart, the meaning may not be ready apparent, but it's there. Looking at Psalm 137:1-4, it says,

["...1By the rivers of Babylon, there we sat down, yea, we wept, when we remembered Zion.
2We hanged our harps upon the willows in the midst thereof.
3For there they that carried us away captive required of us a song; and they that wasted us required of us mirth, saying, Sing us one of the songs of Zion.
4How shall we sing the LORD's song in a strange land?..."]

Now we had begun to make a skit that we found ourselves rowing the Galean sea, with our Lord. On those balmy days when nothing seem to be happening. But that's when our captors thrive, when we are laid low...

They mock us and deride us, saying "Where, is the old faith, my little Christian slave...?" Our enemies exchange gifts, when our spirit is low and lay dead, in hopeless dread of I don't know what!...

When we are in our captors hand, they want us to party with them in their scoffing and laughter. It is at this time that we need to pray, that God shows us the real drama unfolding and see the devil being cast into hell with his angels and emmissaries...

Yep! It is when we are in Babylonian water that the air still and suffocating, and no rest there, even when we don't have anything to do! And sometime we fall in to those waters and join their dissimulation of what is coming up ahead...

But now it's the time of Salvation and end draws near and time to take the wool out of our eyes and wake up and start rowing towards the promised land which heaven itself...

Thursday, July 30, 2009

The March of beat of God's Grace...!

So how are you? I'm fine. I hope you're fine too. Sometimes when thing start drying out here I visit my old Blogger account. It takes me back to where it all started. It's like visiting an old freind. It feel good to be back on the old town...

It just occurred to me, that we nothing but a breath. We puff and puff and what ever but everything marches all according to God's merciful grace. I had a great day. As always everything was ajar, wrong size, wrong brand, wrong application, wrong! wrong! wrong!...

But God showed that nothing is going to happen until heaven is ready and pleasing. But its' great to breathe new air. Although we've been all around. Yes, God can make things anew even with old things...

Yep! Nothing happens until we pray and hope on God. God has reserved for himself the last word and glory and the last laugh if you will...but remembering that God is a good God and want all the best things for us...what if everything marches to will of this good God that we have...

thbg

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

A New Outlook on life...and perhaps God...!

I was feeling particularly relieved today. I had finished some chores around the house that were taking more peace from me than I realized. I feel so much better now. And now when I thought that it was safe to feel relieved, Christmas and Thankgiving is around the corner...

I happen to like the havoc of this time of the season or play on words, the season of havoc, I perhaps happen to like. The fact of the matter is that we are broke. But the good news is that we're broken. And that's our treasure.

We have a whole new batch of faith in our heart to meditate upon. I sought this moment so much. It's been a while since I had a break. God wants to meditate upon Christmas and Thanksgiving.

God said through John the Baptist that no one can receive anything unless it is granted from heaven. And I think we are in the pinnacle of the year, when the hot weather will begin to wind down.

God made each season for every purpose and purpose for every season. In God glorious wisdom, each season last just enough to fulfill its purpose. The harvest time of the year, a time of browning of leaves and cool breezes in the evening.

But Thanksgiving start it off and we have through a lot and have a lots to be thankful for, perhaps even the tense times that come along. And somewhere along the thanks-giving we can forgive those who have offended us.

If we can turn out a good harvest of forgiving some if not many, then we have had a good year and we can really look forward to ending the year with a sense of real accomplishment. I hope your year is a year of forgiving, just as God has forgiven us in Christ. Ephesians 4:32.

May you be blessed. Amen.

thbg

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Spilling the beans on the con-job...

Wow! Hello Journal, have I had a day! They kicked us out of so-and so club site! It was disappointing to be cast out! I now know what it is to be cast out! Easy, easy take easy soul. Relax and let on the spilling the beans about the con-job!

I don't know if I can put it together. I fear. I won't be made clear! Well let's head on! Once upon a time the devil started a compaing in Babel or now Babylon. He want to get into the business of humans and their God.

He started a Religion called Mystery Babylon the Mother of all abominations. This is in Revelations. He figured man likes to feel good, so we will invent a religion where he will feel good. And the devil know or knew that men like personal satisfaction.

And we wanted to feel good about obeying God and started the Religion of works. And surely we will hop on the bible and make man obey God. That will work. After all God has nothing against obedience.

You know what happend to Adam and Eve for disobedience. God punished disobedience. So that what we will build. A guilt trip based on obedience. God will surely punish those who get out of my obedience trap.

Am I clevely devil or not?! So throughout history we will prompt men to feel holy for obedience. You know this Jesus is praised for his obedience even unto death. Men will want to imitate him. And many imitate the great ones of obedience of the bible.

I will not mention what Exodus 31:31 say that the Sabbath is a perpetual sign to remind God and men that it is God that sactify them. I want them to trust on their own 'obedience' to feel holy. Like if they owe God something.

This is wonderful! You cleverly devil! Men want to feel good. And I will teach them to look down on other 'sinner' so they feel more good and more holy. And for desert I will obscure the command to forgive others and put this ritual with those who worship idols!

They will never imatate an idol worshipper! But then I will have a party, just before the He comes who says I AM, who does he think he is God?! I need proof of that! But about the party! I will put a test to test their obedience. I will require them to accept my stamp or else?

I will take hostage their pantry. They won't be able to buy or sell groceries unless they have my permission. I will not permit with out my stamp! I know by then they will all believe that they have to loose their lives and they love in order to be holy!

They will never believe that non-sense Solomon who said somewhere that one should not be over-righteous and destroy ones head for their 'holiness'? I know they will have trouble! Their own family will pressure them to take the stamp of my approval!

But if they only knew that they did not have to believe me and do what ever they have to eat and have shelter. Their own Lord told them what David do when he hungered, he went into the temple and ate the holy bread and shared it with those who were with him.

But this sort of stuff I will never bring up in Bible School. I have to keep them believing that they have to keep earning 'holy' points until they are holy enought to be worthy of anything. I will make them lament and question their salvation. Why they would never question what they have

been taught in church for centuries! But I better hurry and help them feel more good and holy before He come and ruins the party for us devils. Hush! Do let anyone spill the beans! Well we see ya soon, holy people, you are VIPs at my party coming soon! Yo ah take care naw!

Journal! Journal! Help me! I had the most horrific nightmare. I'm glad it was just a nightmare! It was so real! The devil has this plan....

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Getting off the stage-coach...

Now that felt good. Getting off the stage-coach and into the inn. Sound like the scene of western movie in Rio Bravo or somewhere in some dusty town of the old west. And we I get off the stage-coach I go to my summer house in the country-my blogger account.

We got thing going elsewhere, but we just want to take it easy and try to think clearly for second. We've been running round and round the web and we just want to retire here for the evening. Now where do you think I would go with such as this introduction.

Well let's pray and hopefully God can tell us what and in what direction he has numbered our steps. We went into some web hosting but we were not to satified with the results. We want to be where the fish are.

We've made lots of friends here in this site and written quite a bit of blogs and had some view and comments on those blogs. Someblogs were out-lawed and some held at gun-point and some ambushed. But most of the cattle made it safe to the corral.

There this certian person in this site one old and one young, both precious on my friends list. I really pray when I wake I write something that ministers to them. We haven't been able to fast like we should. The flesh is giving me a fight.

Sooner or later I really have to turn in my badge to God and let him run the jail for a while while I visit the saloon and check for building code violations. A Sheriff is indespensible. You just have to lighten up and loosen up there. You are all too tense and stressed.

I seems everything is in check here in the saloon. The wine is fine and the tables are clean. I'd better get back to the jail and keep an eye on 'Billy the Kid' and keep him there until the marshal get here for the trial.

When the marshal get here, he's going to put alot of people in jail. We'll thats that way things are in my town out west. I could use a Mexican Salami burrito right about now. Yes and now you know what happens if you get off the stage-coach in my old town here in old blogger west. May

you keep out of trouble. You don't want any trouble with the sheriff. Bye.


See ya now!

Candlelight

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Looking back a little bit...

Sometimes I turn back to my blogger account and tell it something I don't tell any other. It's when I take my tea or coffee and just let my mind wonder and think and take the road less trodded. Ever since we started our blogger account things began to happen.

Now we have an account in about two and a half sites. I call one a half site, because it's under devilopement and we had our problems there, but the Lord allowed us to stand. At Christianblog, we made a lots of freinds.

At True2Ourselves the building continued. The Lord has allowed me the greatest streak of prodigal indulgence since January of this year. The Word of God just keep on giving. All we've written we just have given it away like the same way our host allowed us into their sites.

I think the greatest challenge for the Christian blogger is staying faithful to the word of God, because not everyone does. And when become clear to me, sometimes it is not clear to everyone and sometime we have misunderstandings.

But our of the flints of strife the Lord has been able to bring fires of fellowship and freindship. It has been a good year so far. But then we have to pray for the less fortunate than ourselves and perhaps refresh their dire life with the wealthe that we have.

And now the Lord want to minister to our youth and how are we going to do that. I have to ask for God's help and grace to accomplish that. But I still believe God can accomplish any task his sets his heart to do and we don't doubt that it will come to pass in due time. May you be blessed.

Love

Candlelight

Thursday, April 23, 2009

The deal with giants...

I was ending my day with heavy afflictions. My hobbies did not give me rest. I couldn't read the bible. Even my friends who visit me did not lift me up. I really did not know what to do. I turned my face to the wall, sat and told God my problem and sins.

Then I changed the channel on my TV and tuned to a 'christian' station. They were having a telethon and the show brought me back to remember something. I used to support this television station with regular giving.

But ever since I noticed some 'pastors' spending most of the time in the lobby of that 'christian' television station. I realized that that television station had turned into a 'church' were some few individual control the spirit of the station.

I stopped giving totally and have no regrets. I see them now spewing out their whim doctrines. A a television which was a wonderful channel for the gospel had its perfect ruin from the work of Satan. God says that if anything is not focused on him, that group is not christian.

Yes many call themselves by God's name and proclaim things, but the end result is to focus on themselves and not on what God has to say. Religion bases on what man does is not of God. Turn to 1Thessonians 2:4-6,

["...4But as we were allowed of God to be put in trust with the gospel, even so we speak; not as pleasing men, but God, which trieth our hearts.
5For neither at any time used we flattering words, as ye know, nor a cloke of covetousness; God is witness:
6Nor of men sought we glory, neither of you, nor yet of others, when we might have been burdensome, as the apostles of Christ..."]

Now these characters have no intention to represent what God has to say at any time. Turn to Phil. 2:19,

["...19But I trust in the Lord Jesus to send Timotheus shortly unto you, that I also may be of good comfort, when I know your state.
20For I have no man likeminded, who will naturally care for your state.
21For all seek their own, not the things which are Jesus Christ's.
22But ye know the proof of him, that, as a son with the father, he hath served with me in the gospel.
23Him therefore I hope to send presently, so soon as I shall see how it will go with me..."]

And these individual are truly giants in the literal sense and call them selves by God name. And the fact of the matter is that this persons truly believe they have angelic parents and have some real 'heavenly' power. Turn Gen. 6:4,

["...4There were giants in the earth in those days; and also after that, when the sons of God came in unto the daughters of men, and they bare children to them, the same became mighty men which were of old, men of renown..."]

And they believe they can grow children to God at will and certainly believe that God does not choose whom he has foreknow and elected to save. They really belive they can invoke the holy spirit on anyone them choose.

To finish this 'giants' or Anakites of the industry. The bible dictionary label them in hebrew meanin "long-necked or strong necked" And certainly dragons have long necks and strong necks. And these people are known to God. Turn to Jude 3-4,

["... 3Beloved, when I gave all diligence to write unto you of the common salvation, it was needful for me to write unto you, and exhort you that ye should earnestly contend for the faith which was once delivered unto the saints.
4For there are certain men crept in unawares, who were before of old ordained to this condemnation, ungodly men, turning the grace of our God into lasciviousness, and denying the only Lord God, and our Lord Jesus Christ...."]

Yes these folk deny the word of God to teach and tell other people what they itch to hear. They give and offer a Jesus them can accept on their own terms, and the Jesus of the bible. All in order to continue to be giants and have the mega churches. May you be blessed. Amen.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

When things get dire...

Sometimes I end the day trembling because of the trouble we have in this life. The constant sniping from satan and his emmiseries can run us down to near zero strenght and near zero faith. But it all has to change.

When we life our eyes and see the Lord and remember his words that he will never leave us nor forsake. And in fact we have nothing to fear in this life no matter if we walk in the valley of the shadow of death.

Some of us have illnesses or have cronic unemployment or just plain want to give up on life. But if we only took a hard look at the majesty of God and try very hard to understand and percieve that the Lord is faithful and can be trusted to answer when our storms come.

Why don't we do just do that forget all that our troubled heart tells us and listen to what Jesus want to tell us for our own good. We turn to Palm 23,

["...1The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
6Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever..."]

Why don't I take this six barrel shooter verses and point them right at Satan and tell the devil, let me tell you six things in case you have forgotten...the Lord is my Shepherd: I shall not want...!

Monday, April 20, 2009

Go figure the situation...

After a long session of turmoil and anxiety after Passover, we thought and look brightly ahead to the good things God has for me and us. For God says, I know the plans I have for you, for good and not for harm...

But I lost my temper today in the most disastrous manner and I'm not happy. How long shall we endure the ploys of the wicked? No there's not trophy for being right when relationships are ruined and God laws disobeyed.

The only one who would be happy now is the devil. He managed to pick and pick at a relation until it had the last straw and the volcano of fire and ash explode and ruin the whole scenery and neihborhood.

We turn to Isaiah 29:13,

["...13Wherefore the Lord said, Forasmuch as this people draw near me with their mouth, and with their lips do honour me, but have removed their heart far from me, and their fear toward me is taught by the precept of men:.."]

The Lord has his own brand of indignation, when we invent doctrines and whim of our own imagination and call them 'christian'. Certainly some are so that are the ones who perhaps think they bring glory to God, by their whims.

The Lord says, their hearts are really far away. And he can even talking to me right now? And I examine myself right now. Do I really represent God by the things I say and more particular by the thing I do?

Nay, losing ones temper, is not the christian life. So we pray that tomorrow will be a better day. Today we cashed in for a loss and we have nothing to glory. If we can glory in something- it's Gods mercy and forgiveness.

May God bless you and may he have all the praise and all the glory. Amen.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

There a commercial which annouces a mother who is concerned because her son is in trouble with the authorities and her freind tells her, "Don't worry about it, just call so and so...!". It sounds like a comforting statement.

But then ask a mother whose son has cancer or is in drugs or jail? You just don't say, "Don't worry about it!" Jesus told the Pharisees in Luke 14 this matter,

["... 1And it came to pass, as he went into the house of one of the chief Pharisees to eat bread on the sabbath day, that they watched him.
2And, behold, there was a certain man before him which had the dropsy.
3And Jesus answering spake unto the lawyers and Pharisees, saying, Is it lawful to heal on the sabbath day?
4And they held their peace. And he took him, and healed him, and let him go;
5And answered them, saying, Which of you shall have an ass or an ox fallen into a pit, and will not straightway pull him out on the sabbath day?
6And they could not answer him again to these things..."]

I was fretting with my subject who gives me a stumble all day and felt afflicted. Then I came home and went to fix the flat on my bycicle and couldn't find the place. And I thought I was afflicted.

So I gave up the fight, went into Albersons Star Buck and had a coffee, a sure remedy to get my priorities right. The Lord told me in my heart, " The faster you get you soul together, the sooner we can look for lost soul and tell him about me..."

The I realized that Satan had been very successful in stumbling me and mixing my head so I can't stand get on with the issue of proclaiming God. So I went home, put my flat tire aside and go on the business to pray and meditate on Gods word.

You don't tell God when one of his souls is lost somewhere, " Don't worry about it...!" And it comes to pass that in someplace Jesus speaks of some who will say, my master is delayed and go and eat and drink with the drunken.

And the Lord will come in a day he doesn't expect him and put him with the hypocrites. I got a dab of that. I was so worried so much about who give me trouble and forgot who is in real trouble with his destiny. May you be blessed. Amen.

The blogger account...

I have blogging account and in my mind is in the outskirts of town. I know there's no virtual distance in the web and no address is so far away that we cannot reach it just as fast as a close one. We also have LockedJournal account which we also appreciate.

We also have a facebook account which we also use. And we use all of them. Each site has a particular spirit to it. Some are confined. Some are open. Some you have to write fast and in others you feel like you can take your time.

Sometime how you write is determined by the spirit of the blog site. This site has a freindly spirit and I am reminded that I'm a guest and I like to remember that in what I say. We want to stay here until a long time, God willing.

I use all he sites to keep producing. I was watching a movie about a baker who was instrumental in mending peoples lives and someone eventually mended his life. I feel like a baker. I wake up very early and love to share what I experience and read in God's word.

Like I'm doing now. It has been so rewarding to give myself away. My troubles, my hangups, my anxieties and apprehensions. The fact of the matter is that I will only be around once. And many time I asked the Lord to give me something significant to do.

And he gave me this, give your life away. And that's what keep me alive, giving my life away. I've made so many wonderful freinds here and learned from them, you so much. And I learned to have sympathy. That aspect in myself is always under repair.

We didn't turn to any scriptures here. I just want to ask you to pray for me so I can turn the page on my life and give away another piece or page of my life away. I love you in the Lord and feel so blessed to write and read from you on this site. May you be blessed. Amen.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

We pray that the day becomes Right...

Somewhere along the line, something happen to me and God wasn't pleased with that situation. But I don't understand how God can be unhappy with an event he let happen. I was disputing with some brothers and it was a no win situation.

We just had to give in for peace sake. But it was costly. That why I called this peace. "We pray that the day becomes right". And I asking for you prayer that my undisclosed situation becomes right. So the gift can return and we can explore God wisdom again.

Something that we are studying today: In the old testament, the sacrifices continue, now money is involved. So its a tracedental thing, from animal sacrifice to giving money. But there's something the looms this morning as we read, God says is Hosea 6:6, It's mercy I want and not

sacrifice. The purpose of the whole matter was not to have rhetorical exercise in knowledge or 'wisdom' but to bring mercy. Jesus told the Pharisees see that you go learn, I desire mercy and not sacrifice...In the new testament Jesus makes this statement,21 And he said to them,"Is a

lamp brought in to be put under a basket, or under a bed, and not on a stand?22 For nothing is hidden except to be made manifest; nor is anything secret except to come to light.23 If anyone has ears to hear, let him hear."24 And he said to them,"Pay attention to what you hear: with the

measure you use, it will be measured to you, and still more will be added to you.25 For to the one who has, more will be given, and from the one who has not, even what he has will be taken away."Is the truth to be hidden? Will it be able to stay hidden? And I we hide the truth, he

finishes...and from the one who has not, even what he has will be taken away. I don't know how this happen to an individual, but things don't work then and nothing seems to work. Like Lot's wife, she wanted to hold on to what she had and she turned into a pillar of salt. Like wise Jesus

said that if any body loves his life more than him, he will eventually loose that too. But what does it all mean?Sometimes we don't prosper because because the measure we use, will be measured back to us...quite a variety of statements. Perhaps you know what this all means? The fact of the

matter is that we can do nothing agaist the truth but everything for the truth. And if God want go to remote place on the globe or putting in terms an outsider might understand God is willing to make that kind of sacrifice. God loves to sacrifice Dogma for fellowship. Reaching the lost is

the prime directive and not how much wisdom I accumulate to put in books or rules. The word of God is not for the shelf but to bring someone to enlightment. But how mush rhetoric sacrifice are we willing to make to reach our goal- to save some lost souls. Jesus says in Luke 14, if your

son or even your ox falls on pit will you not put down your Mantra and take him or even it out? What measures are we willing to take to build our tower? Are we willing to pay cost? Or are we going to look back and turn into a pillar of salt? May you be blessed. Amen.

Monday, February 16, 2009

First Idle then cranky...

It was a rainbow color today with all the activities of the day. I took my mother to see her doctor for check-up MRI. And she was cheerful. I wasn't feeling too well in the morning. I drank all the doctors office coffee and that made me feel better.

I took a stroll outside. I take a stroll when I need to be reminded of the majesty of God and his creation. I took my little bible and turned to Matthew. The ontourage of soldiers and mob was on its way to apprehend Jesus in the garden. There was a garden outside the doctors office.

Jesus said to them, who are you looking for? Jesus of Nazaret they shouted. I AM and them fell back. That name was so forbidden to Jew that they don't pronounce it because they consider it so holy. And there this subject calling himself I AM or JHWV.

Why they shuddered and collapsed. For an instant they believed this shocking statement. But then they regained their composure and followed suit to what they came to do- apprend the Author of Life.

The breeze kept flipping the pages on my little bible and I looked out toward the horizon and marveled at the city and the sky and clouds and thought about the I AM. I was beginning to feel better and proceeded to have a wonderful day of activity and errands.

But came home and found that I had been kicked of the database for lack of funds. I payed them twice and not result. I lost money for today. I sat on my sofa and just asked God if everything was alright with us. And the great I AM stirred my heart to think " Have you really run out of

databases to do my work...? I honestly returned to a site which I consider it a country home where I retire to write when I kicked out of every where else. And I thought of the great I AM. Databases are no problem to him. All technology is founded on his grace and word.

My mother came out of the doctors office cheerful and I now look back and I had trusted the I AM for the rest of the day, I would of had a continual feast all day. But I now thank God that he sent his angel to sit with me on the sofa and examine the back door or the light on God had left

for me today. Yes it way idle and then cranky, the great I AM continues through all circumstances. Yes we lost money but the giver of all things was with me today and comforted me with his peace. Perhaps you too can share the fellowship with the great I AM and we

meditate on this as we continue to flip pages on our bible. May you be blessed. Amen.